mrbr n jr

day by days went by . after the tragic thing happened to me on last Monday, it seems like it would never fade away. my days fly off and im still struggling in pain and full of sorrows. every time i see A cute little US picture of a 9weeks F , it really breaks me down and the pain starts to burned my heart little by little . if only i can print out the picture if you that day. how i wish i can keep him but unfortunately i cant by the time and current situation all i can do is this dear .. i am so sorry for everything and you will be my first forever. i love you so much !! and i hope you know it is TRUE :')

the movie SMURF do have a little similar story as my life story and while watching it really touched my heart and i cant stop crying :) i promise myself i would never do that again to the next . i would rather die in pain to keep him alive and survive .

i love you MRBR .. and Jr ^^ you promised me one thing on that Sunday night, you will wait for me right ? i hope that still count :) i love you both so much . thanks for everything, thanks for existing, thanks for the caring and the accompany b .. you really the best and i'll be with you forever untiol my last breath . promise :)

The future thinkier,

Nena