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Ahad, Januari 15, 2012

i want to speak but felt guilty.

i do feel annoyed when :

  1. every time i opened the house door just to take my stuff in he car or hang my clothes, my mom will walk down the stairs and have a check on what am i doing outside the house.
  2. every time i went out from the house, my mom will spot check my bedroom 
  3. every time i fall asleep on the sofa when i got back from my class or where ever im from, my mom will spotcheck my handbag.   
Mother, that is seriously ain't cool . 

i sometimes give my angry face to her when she did the 3 things above because i am annoyed of her being so overprotective. i agreed when my family members said i am the most naughties and unable to control daughter. i am not proud of it but this is me, this is who i am. i am USED to it because i never stopped to do anything since i was small.

Me as a teenagers do have the urge to explore the world around me but i do have my limits on trying or experience new things and i didnt jump over my limits and i will never do. People around me may think that i am a very wild girl and very easy to go with but i can yell to you that you are WRONG. i have my dignity and as a girl i choose not to put myself in danger. i know that the world is cruel and now a days lots of unwanted things out there happened and its all over the news.

Alhamdulillah i praised to Allah that i have my parents, sisters, boyfriend and friends that i actually can count on to take care of me. yes i dont mind being protected but not too much. sometimes, i really want to speak out but i do felt guilty because i know the reason why she did all these. she just being a good mother who worried any unwanted things happen to me and to my future . she CARES about me and she love me. that's why all this while i didnt say anything over what she did and i will always love my mother forever. she is the best mother in the world and i am very proud of her and thank her for everything. 

i love you mom *hearts*