Yes on 12th of January 2011, I became a free woman once again. This time around, I am confirming about my decision. I am willing to let him let me go and no more tears and begging. He seems strong and brave to let me go. For the fifth times, he asks for breakups. Moreover, this time around I will go with the flow of he letting me go. After he said to me “aku tak berminat nak ada hubungan dengan kau” when I ask to be friends, every things is over. However, after a few minutes, he texted me and said to me “I’m sorry, sy bukan xnak ada hubungan dah dengan awk”. I was so curious because what actually he wants. The next day up until now he still trying to convince me to accept him back. He gave me yellow daisy flower, he open the car door for me and he talk sweetly to me. However, not all that things cures my heart condition just like that. I have a Hero in my life, in my heart, who willing to wait for me for a year and do everything for me. I do not want to hurt my Hero once again. Nevertheless, it’s hard to convince him that my feelings towards him not as same as we used to feel together last time after he said to me “kita break” on that night. Yes, every time he is around me I felt sad and sorrow. But its hard to say NO to him. I am selfish. Every time I think around this, my hearts seems empty. I do not have any feelings towards every thing. But I cant suits my self walk around the town with some one else when his friends saw me with their weird face expression. I am not happy. In working place, I have a cool and sporting boss ever. Unfortunately, he is not like other old man. He is married and has very cute and pretty kids. However, he is playful and some times, I feel awkward and scared while working. Thank god, I have my friends around me who works there too. They always comport me, protect me and alert me when unusual situation happen while working happens to me. but so far, I love “BULAN”. So for those who stay in Kuantan, do come over to Bulan and have a great meal and drinks.
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